Postpartum Depression: With the right tools and resources, I’m now on the journey of healing.

“Man, has it been a season of growth! Not only for King but for myself as well. As some of you may have noticed, I struggled with PPD and PPA after having Kingston and still learning to deal with it every day. I had really dark moments filled with rage and sadness and I resented everyone and everything. I was nervous, anxious, and angry every day and the littlest things would trigger my rage. No one said raising a child was easy and raising 3 is definitely a struggle bus but I kept asking myself, is it really supposed to be this hard and this sad? ⁠
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With the right tools and resources, I’m now on the journey of healing. It’s so hard to face the fact that you’re dealing with something like depression or anxiety but it was my reality. ⁠
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I now have more control over my PPD and PPA and wanted to share some things I’ve picked up along the way. I’ve learned to look at the glass half full and not to let the negative things weigh you down. Trust me, it’s a dark dark ugly path. I’ve learned to let go of the things that don’t matter and that also means letting go of some control. 

I’m a total control freak and it was completely overwhelming me. My OCD twisted with anxiety was just crippling and because of it, I’ve learned what it means to ask for help and taking time for myself. That does not mean a trip to the grocery store alone. It really means doing the little things for yourself. ⁠
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I’ve learned how essential it was to fill my cup to be a better mom, wife, and person overall. I also can’t fill your cup if mine is empty! So let’s fill all our cups with love and happiness but recognize the struggles in between. Any other mama’s struggling out there, I hear you and I’m here with you, sending you hugs “